My life Was Changed by Love

Now, I am looking back at my experiences in the past and there is a penitent feeling in my mind. Maybe I have gone through too much. No matter if you are an insensitive person or a fool, you should certainly realize life is so important!

My hometown was a in the suburb of Sungai Petani in Kedah. I was introverted, taciturn and inactive.  Everything seemed no bother to me and I had no opinion. Luckily, I had married a wonderful and virtuous, good wife. I had 2 loving, good daughters. When I felt I was so lucky, I never expected that "bad luck" had quietly arrived.

In 2002, I often felt my head was heavy and had headaches quite often. I thought it might be time to change to an easier job. In early 2003, I changed my job to be a secretary working in a school. This work was much easier than my previous job. Even though I did not have a high salary, my life was more regular. I had more time to spend with my daughters and wife. I enjoyed my time with my family.

However, I still had headaches and they got worse. Initially, I took 1 or 2 tablets of anaesthetic to relieve pain. Later, it did not work even though I took few tablets of anaesthetic. Private clinic prescriptions did not help either. I became very sensitive to light. If I saw strong sunlight and strong light, my headache was even worse. In order to avoid the sunlight, I often stayed in my room. Sometimes my headache would last for 24 hours with dizziness, vomiting and other symptoms. 

In fact, I had brain cancer

In May 2003, I had more frequent headaches and my vision was blurry. My left eyelid was drooping down and I could not open it. At that time, I was a little scared. So I went to see a doctor at the Kuala Lumpur General Hospital. After a scan test, the doctor told me that I had a 3-4cm tumor on my pituitary gland. It was called "pituitary adenoma", a kind of brain tumor. Since it was growing bigger and bigger, it was pressing my cranial nerves and causing my headaches. Now it was pressing the left optic nerve, so it affected my vision. The worst situation would be a hemianopia of one eye (unilateral hemianopia) or of both eyes (bilateral hemianopia).

To avoid the brain tumor continuing to grow and affecting my right eye, the doctor advised me to have a removal surgery immediately. But the success rate of the surgery was only 50 percent. I had no choice and so I could only follow the doctor’s arrangement of staying in the hospital and waiting for my surgery to be scheduled. My wife was caring and considerable. During the hospitalization, she was always with me and gave me great support and help. She was a strong and positive woman who encouraged and helped me to overcome my negative thoughts. Meanwhile, she kept asking other doctors for advice and hoped to find an alternative treatment so that I could avoid surgery.  

There’s always a better way!  My brain tumor disappeared

There’s always a better way!  One day, I was reading a Malay magazine in the hospital and I saw an article about the efficacy of TXL(Tian Xian Liquid). Although there were many types of anticancer products and healthcare products on the market, I was particularly interested in this medicine. I showed my wife the article and discussed it with her. My wife had a relative who was a doctor; therefore, we asked for his advice. He encouraged me to try this medicine.

With the encouragement, my wife and I decided to give the medicine a try. At that time, I was quite fragile. Initially when I drank TXL(Tian Xian Liquid), I had a headache in reaction. Every time the severe headache would last for a few hours. I was a bit worried but my wife was very calm and believed that the medicine was functioning inside my body. I just needed to stick with it and I would be fine few days later.  With her encouragement, I always became stronger. 

About two weeks later, I told my wife I left my left eye was more relaxed. She looked at my eyes and happily said: "Your eyes are open!" I was so happy.  A month later, we went back to the hospital for an examination and the doctor was surprised to find that my condition was improving. The tumor had shrunk to one centimeter. The doctor said I could open my eyes because the tumor’s size was smaller and there was no pressure on the nerves. Now my wife and I had greater confidence in my recovery and we were also attentive to making dietary adjustments.

A year later in March 2004, my scanning report showed my brain tumor was gone. In July, a MRI report also confirmed that my tumor had disappeared. I quickly returned back to normal life and my work; I was still the secretary working in the school. My wife still took good care of my daily life. I needed to thank my wife for her care and dedication to me so I was able to recover so quickly. I believed my family and I could start a perfect life with harmony.  

Another Agony in My Life

In mid-2008, my wife started to feel something wrong with her. She had abdominal pain. At the end of 2008, she went to a hospital for a checkup. She was diagnosed with stomach cancer. I suggested that she take TXL(Tian Xian Liquid) but she refused. She said she was a government officer and she would have special medical benefits if she had surgery and therapies operating out of government hospitals. She said if we could afford to buy, it would be for me. She said she did not need it to prevent cancer recurrence. She insisted on choosing the hospital treatments and let me have TXL(Tian Xian Liquid). 

She was the most generous, kind and strong wife but she also was a very stubborn woman. I was so regretful that I was unable to convince her. I was watching her suffer from the vicious disease and being tortured by the chemo and radiotherapy. In May 2009, she passed away. I was heartbroken and no words could describe my pain.   

My wife gave her life in exchange for my life, I will be brave and go on with her love

I will never forget this experience. 7 years ago, my wife did not give up on faith and pulled me away from this evil disease. However, I could not save her from the devil's hand. I am so remorseful and always remind myself to cherish my life. Her love becomes my motivation and the strength of my life. The negative and taciturn me is long gone. I have learned to face all difficulties with a positive attitude and strong, brave perseverance.

Now I have my own small business, and although it is just an ordinary small shop my two daughters and I are relying on it. My wife used her life in exchange for everything I have today including my good health and my optimistic thoughts. I know how to cherish it for sure.  

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